My current obessions...

Life sucks...

I hate that I cannot feel any major emotion without my body feeling it too!

Grrrr Here's a picture of Chuck to make me feel better

Who's that girl...

Still too raw.

FFS....

Not posted in a while
probably because life overtook me
I messed up
I let a boy in
I told him too much
He used it against me
He hurt me in a way I'd sworn to never be hurt again
I am stronger than this
I am stronger than him
I won't let his lies destroy me
Onwards and upwards

How cute...

I'm a big SJP fan for obvious reasons and I can't wait to see how she dresses her twin girls!

Simply a legend...

Oh my...

My work's blog just directed me to some of the most simple yet beautiful drawings I've seen. Sara Singh draws how I wish I could.

Simply stunning.

So pretty...

My own work pointed me to this website which is really bad as I'm now going to spend hours looking at his pretty face rather than sorting through clothes but I do so agree with the sentiment fuck yeah Ed Westwick

There are no words but I'll try anyway...

So I finally saw Britney Spears for myself. I was excited beyond belief and when I walked into the arena I couldn't believe what I was about to witness. SHE WAS INCREDIBLE! The whole show was INCREDIBLE the production was first class. To kick it off the New York Big Apple Circus who amazed us all with there jaw dropping stunts and then Britney herself descended from the sky and boy was she on it! I've read so many criticisms of Britney recently when she was on X Factor everyone but me hated her but this time she was on it. She was with it, dancing her socks off and smiling away! It made me so happy! The amount of work that must have gone into this show the sets, the costumes and Britney herself was phenomenal! I can't explain what it is about Britney that I love so much I love her songs, I love her and I do love her more because of what she has been through. But I just think she rocks and when she ended her set with Toxic, Baby and Womaniser the whole place erupted and it was AMAZING!

I'll leave you with Perez Hiltons words which I very much agree with...

There is something about Britney that makes her truly special. She has that indescribable "it" factor. People are always rooting for her, even when she was at her lowest lows. We genuinely want to see her succeed! We've seen her grow up in front of our eyes, and we love her - shortcomings and all. She may not be perfect, but that's okay. She's our Britney.

And she's back, bitches!

When I wake up in the morning...

He looks the same!!!

Oh my...

Hermione is all grown up. Shot for the new Burberry campaign.

I'm so excited...

I know I've not posted in ages but there is only one thing on my mind...Miss Spears! 5 days people 5 days!

Videos are all I can manage...

I can't wait to see UP!

and I think these guys are amazing.

A 16 year old summing up how I feel...

Less than a month to go...

I'm very very very very very very excited!!

The adventures of Mickey Mouse...

Went for dinner with the family last night as my mother and brother were in town. We went for coffee and cherry pie at the Diner afterwards and a lady walked in with a green mickey balloon. Elliot being Elliot asked her where she had got it from and she answered a party at Start. After telling her how much I loved the Little Mermaid he dashed off to get one. The whole Diner was waiting to see if he would deliver and deliver he did. A lovey shiny red balloon for me. On the walk home it was like being in a secret club with other people who had a balloon yelling and being very excited! Lovely brothers hey!

Simply beatiful...

I hardly ever write about jewellery. Mainly because I don't make it at the moment and I'm jealous of those that do. But also because it takes a lot to grab my attention but this work did. Its simply divine. Its Marquis & Camus by Sarah Kang and I adore it. The photography is great to capturing the essence of the work. But I love the simple colours, the fabrics used and the materials. Its so what I would wish to be making right now if I was making anything.

OMG...

LOVE THIS! Mainly due to Kermit but also I love Prince Charles voice so soothing. It just random and I love it...Lets go save the rain forests!

The worst film I've ever seen...

I know I know. I should know better but sometimes I love nothing more than going to see a cheesy rom com. I loved 17 again! But this was awful like they couldn't be bothered. Matthew I am so disappointed. I loved both the wedding planner and how to lose a guy in ten days and then you do this. tut tut Matthew tut tut.

My world...

Sometimes the world works in such odd ways. Just when you think it cannot get any worse it does and then just when you think it might all be over you catch a break. Today I found out I got a new job. Its my dream role but what has made it sweeter is my families reaction. They are so happy for me and so proud. These past few years have been so tough and although its been hard for me sometimes I think it is harder to witness. When I see my sister is poorly I melt I just want to make her safe and no one has been able to do that for me. My world crumbled around me and my health went from bad to worse. But through it all my family were there to pick up the pieces and pick me up literally. I know this sounds like a pity party but I do not feel sorry for myself. Although I hate my body sometimes and what it does I don't feel sorry for myself. How can I? I am surrounded by this amazing family full of people who love me and would do anything for me. If I was to call them at 1am they would come no questions. They are always there. They provide me with my backbone, they are my support system. As I continue on my journey to get better, to grow in confidence and regain myself they are there with me. I've hit a rough patch of late and I am faltering. Its a tough time being out of work and with no proper home I've started to fit daily this week. So when I rang them to tell them I've been offered my first proper full time job since my accident they were overjoyed and tears flowed. I am so full of love for them right now and am so grateful. I love my family and am not ashamed. I know I'm lucky. Lucky to be alive, lucky to have my parents, lucky to have my siblings but most of all I am lucky that they didn't give up on me as I wanted to. I think I get to be the favourite today! 

Real life...

I have started fainting again. 

I am scared.

I don't want to admit it

I don't want to admit defeat. 

I am suffering

I need help.

But I will get help

and I will beat this.

I have to.

L.O.V.E...

This is quite simply the most beautiful website I have ever seen. With all this talk of love who cares if you are unemployed. 

I've got to admit...

Denise looks lovely in her wedding dress. I love her hair band! I think they have the perfect beach look, casual elegance. I don't even mind her marrying Lee anymore as this picture is so lush. 

Not blogged in a while...

Mainly due to having a very painful kidney infection ow ow ow but also due to not having much to say. I must be ill that never happens.

Two things

1, I went to the Saatchi and loved these people

2, I saw Let The Right One In because my friend was ashamed of me for seeing Twilight and loving it. Now I liked this film a lot it was beautifully shot and a very clever idea. But it doesn't take away from the fact that I LOVE Twilight i simply adore it. Its love story is so huge and out of this world it draws me in and I'm a sucker. Also there isn't actually that much blood in Twilight not like this film which was bloody to say the least.

Love love love...

So it has come to my attention (my boyfriend told me) that I use the word love way too much. I'm always in love with people, TV, places or clothing. Its always love and I always mean it. But am I simply short of adjectives or do I actually love everything?


Love a (1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b: an assurance of love 2: warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion

These are alternatives I could use -

admire, adulate, be attached to, be captivated by, be crazy about, be enamored of, be enchanted by, be fascinated with, be fond of, be in love with, canonize, care for, cherish, choose, deify, delight in, dote on, esteem, exalt, fall for, fancy, glorify, go for*, gone on, have affection for, have it bad, hold dear, hold high, idolize, long for, lose one's heart to, prefer, prize, put on pedestal, think the world of, thrive with, treasure, venerate, wild for, worship

I think I'm just enthusiastic. I see something and get way too excited and fall for it quickly. If I can't stop thinking about it I obsess and then yes say I love it. I don't love everything. I don't love Zac Efron, Glamour magazine or Lily Allen. I do love Russel Brand, Sex and the City and Britney. But these have been in my heart for ages they aren't just flash in the pans they run deep into my psyche. Yes I might be sad and just a girl but this is me. I will try and widen my vocabulary and mix it up but when I get excited and want people to know it I will be using the L word and yeah I will actually mean it.

Me me me...

This has been doing the rounds and I'm feeling self indulgent

What’s the last thing you read or are currently reading?
I'm reading Twilight at the moment. Cliche I know but I have read it before and I forgot how much I do actually love it before the series goes all crazy and werewolves aplenty.

Do you nap a lot?
Not really I try to sometimes but it never really works.

Who was the last person you hugged?
my lovely sister Jade

What’s your current obsession/addiction?
coffee, coffee and more coffee

What are you wearing right now?
my blue H&M nurses dress

What was for dinner?
breakfast...was porridge oats and bananas and of course coffee

What have you been listening to lately?
Oasis and Britney

If you could have any super power, what would it be?
Fly got to be Peter Petrelli

What is your favorite weather, and why?
Sunny sunny summer days

What was the last thing you bought?
Salad yesterday for my tea

Say something about the person who tagged you:
they are beautiful

If you could have a house- totally paid for, fully furnished- anywhere in the world, where would you want it to be?
New York City

Favorite vacation spot?
New York

Favorite pair of shoes you keep going back to over and over, even though your closet is overflowing with a zillion others?
Black flats with a gold buckle I can't get enough of them

Name one thing you cannot live without.
coffee

If you could wake up anywhere tomorrow, where would it be?
Paris

Flowers in the park...

Went for a lovely bike ride through Victoria Park as I had to get out the house to relieve my crazyness.





This squirrel came right up to me on my bike wasn't scared at all.

Maybe the most perfect film trailer ever...

need to see this...

Ten things they should tell you before you do a design degree...

1. Living away from home is terrifying at first but turns into the best experience of your life
2. This is the time you can be your most creative. Make the most of it.
   
3. If you actually want to get a job at the end of it don't do a making degree as these do not help.
   
4. It doesn't matter how talented you are as a maker no one is going to hand you a job at your degree show.
   
5. There are thousands of students just like you. Creative, talented, unique and all in need of a job.
   
6. They don't teach you all you need to know.
   
7. You really begin to learn when you start living in the real world.
   
8. University is not reality its a holiday park.
   
9. Make, make and then make some more. You'll only regret not using your time wisely.
   
   and finally
   
   
10. You will make the greatest friends in the whole wide world and it will all be worth it.
    

OMG...

Is it wrong to find Zac Efron attractive..?

Pretty...

Got lots to blog about but am awaiting pictures so in the meantime an image from the Science Museum to keep you entertained...

La la la...

Visitors hang from a carnival ride near Beijing's Olympic stadium, now home to the Bird's Nest Carnival that runs until October. I SO WANT TO GO ON THAT!

So I haven't blogged in ages even though I have a lot of free time. I don't think I have been doing anything that interesting. Hopefully that will change today as I'm going to the Science museum to see the wallace and gromit exhibition! so grown up of me!

I watched the Queen last night again. I really like it. I've seen quite a few films that Micheal Sheen has been in and I think he's really great. I love the idea of seeing behind the scenes of the palace. So many people knock her but I love her. She stands for what I love about our country and I can't imagine not having a royal family who would wear all the hats...

I never do this...

This is so not me I'm not the girl who has been planning her wedding since she was 10. I have no idea if I'll ever even get married but if I ever do I want this dress more than anything else. I heart Vivienne Westwood so much and would love one of her trademark dresses but they are so special how would you ever have the right moment to wear one. Then came SATC and I swooned. The dress is perfect yes its dramatic and over the top but its your wedding day and the one day I think you could get away with the dream dress. I thought it was way out of my budget but just seen it on Net A Porter for £4,500! OMG!! just a shame I'm no way near getting married anytime soon....

Inspiration...

So after seeing the beautiful hats at the V&A the other day I'm all inspired. I'm in a temporary room at the moment so don't have my millinery stuff with me so I'm just back to the old school pencil and paper. These will one days be wonderful hats.

I heart...

Helena Bonham Carter. She wore vintage Vivienne and a hat to the Empire awards. I love it when people take the chance to wear a hat! Love her!

Some things you never forget...

Pacey Whitter...aka Joshua Jackson always has a place in my heart.

Couldn't be more beautiful...

OMG...I'm going to have to go lie down

Now I know smoking is not big or clever it will indeed kill you but WOW pure hotness

Picture from a new GQ interview 

Surrounded by hats...

Went to see the Hats yesterday. It was fabulous. Though for a different reason that I thought it would be. I thought I would see lots of amazing, crazy hats but it was more a history of the hat. There were some truly outstanding hats but most were day hats still beautiful but not the wow factor I thought there would be. I think I'm lucky in that when I worked for Philip Treacy I was surrounded by amazing creations every day. Some days I would have to help sort the archive of hats to find a particular one to send off. I got to touch the history and see the beauty up close. I've been spoilt. The hats that were my favourite yesterday I knew were Philip's without even having to look. I think Stephen Jones is incredible too, of course. But its like vanilla and chocolate you like both but you prefer one. But without Stephen Jones there would be no Philip Treacy so we have a lot to be thankful for.

Surrounded by hats yesterday I started to draw. I felt so inspired so free. When I saw the jewellery I don't feel so inspired. I admire it and think its stunning. But there is something about a hat which truly grabs me. It the freedom to create whatever you wish. Its the different techniques you can employ. Its the space thats there to be filled. Everyone can wear a hat and everyone does at some point.  You feel you need a special occasion a wedding, the races but you don't you should wear one whenever the mood takes you. People yesterday were wearing hats and it made me smile. I wear jewellery everyday I feel naked without it. But a hat can transform you...you always notice people in a hat. 

When Sex and The City premiered in London last year all the ladies looked stunning. There was Vivenne Westwood, Calvin Klein, Vintage Guy Laroche and Alexandra McQueen. But all everybody was talking about was Sarah Jessica Parker and her Philip Treacy hat.  

It created a moment and so much buzz. Lots of people didn't like it but they were still talking about it. The hat was on show yesterday along with many famous creations. I always find that exciting to see something which is famous, to me, in real life. Sometimes it can take my breathe away.

So whilst the exhibition did not have that wow factor I was expecting it was still pretty intense. What I wasn't expecting was his drawings. They were the real highlight to me his lightness of touch and the way he draws his ideas and designs are exquisite. I was inspired by lines on a page and by true creativity. Stephen Jones has done an incredible job. He has brought hats to the mainstream. The exhibition was packed yesterday and if more people start to see and admire beautiful hats and see the hard work they entail long may he continue. 

More Britney...

Ok so two Britney posts in a row. But I'm sorry I just can't stop listening to If You Seek Amy on my ipod and then I see the new video and its hot hot hot!!! Link here  

Seriously I'm just in awe. I love her. I have to wait until June 14th to see her. I can hardly wait! 

Miss Britney...

I'm v. excited. I see Britney on June 14th and she's just kicked off her tour over in the States. And even Perez Hilton who is normally so harsh has written a glowing review! Getting the major points right yes she mimes but that's not the point. We know she mimes we go to see Britney and Britney is fabulous! Its a full on show and it will be the best show you've ever seen.

Perez's review -

This is a bullshit-free review!

Britney Spears descended from the sky at the New Orleans Arena on Tuesday night to rightfully reclaim her role as the Princess of Pop. And Perez was lucky enough to be there!

One of the reasons we decided to go to New Orleans was because we weren't sure if Britney would make it without quitting through to the middle of April, when her Circus tour is scheduled to hit Los Angeles. Heck, we weren't even sure she could pull off opening night.

And she did! Quite well. Much better than we had expected!

Here's how it all went down: The Pussycat Dolls went on at 8:00 P.M. sharp and put on an energetic 40-minute set of hits. Robin Antin, the group's founder, told us that they had just one day and only two hours on stage to reconfigure their arena show to be in-the-round, as is the case with Britney's 3-stage circus.

Backstage we ran into K-Fat and Spears' newly rehired assistant, Felicia Culotta. There was no sense of chaos or panic behind the scenes before Britney went on, which surprised us.

There was a pre-show featuring clowns, martial arts and acrobatics, and Britney went on at approximately 9:20 P.M, playing for about an hour and forty minutes.

A video featuring none other than yours truly, Perez, opened the show, and - we are pleased to say - it was very warmly received!

Spears descended from the roof on an apparatus and kicked things off with the appropriately-themed Circus. And she looked great! The outfits were fab and her body was bangin! Her leg muscles are ridic!

Now, let's get our biggest gripe/problem with the show out of the way. Yes, she lipsynchs during the entire concert. There is no live singing. None!. She recorded vocals to "sound like" live, but they were all canned, pre-taped.

However, it's a Britney Spears show. You expect that!

Even though you expect it, though, it would be nice if at least a handful of the almost 20 song set were live. But, that's not gonna happen.

In exchange for the miming, you do get Spears doing what she does best, dancing. And she's got the moves again!

We were a bit underwhelmed by her live TV appearances performing Womanizer. She seemed drugged and lethargic. She'd walk around from point A to point B, just walking - without much (if any) confidence.

Well, we are pleased to say that Britney has her confidence back! And she seemed to be having a great time throughout the whole show. You could tell by the huge grin that appeared on her face throughout the evening.

She didn't say much. In fact, she didn't speak at all to the audience until after the very last song! We do wish she would have said something earlier, but she didn't have to. She spoke through her body and that infectious smile.

When you see Britney smile, you can't help but smile back!

Her only words the whole night were, "Thank you New Orleans, I love u guys. Did y'all have a good time? Thank you so much," which she said after the final encore, Womanizer.

The show is a non-stop, exhilarating assault on the eyes, a visual extravaganza. And there is a LOT that Britney does. To her credit, she pulled it off! She did it!

She danced like she hasn't danced in a very long time. And, one of the best parts of the evening was that Spears seemed to be clear-headed. She did not appear heavily-sedated or lethargic at all. She was on point!

It being the very first show of the tour, you could tell she was wasn't 100% tight with the choreography yet, but she was more than just going through the motions. She was feeling it and into it!

We had never seen a show in-the-round before and it was a thrilling experience. There is no bad seat in the house! And director Jamie King did an exquisite job of filling the space and being inventive.

The show was fun and fresh and dazzling! There were definitely many more "moving pieces" than in Madonna's recent Sticky & Sweet tour, which King also directed.

There were a few missteps on the production-front, a misguided heavy metal segment and some empty space with two background vocalists that could be filled or tightened after Spears sings lipsynchs the ballad Everytime.

But, those moments were definitely very few and far between. If you are a Britney fan - or someone who appreciates a big spectacle - then you will love the show. Jamie did an amazing job of giving the concert a true Circus-like feel, incorporating magic, aerialists, clowns, tons of dancers and lots of razzle dazzle.

The most jaw-dropping moment of the show was when Spears performed Breath On Me accompanied by two aerialists, who turned their bodies into a bed and sent Britney flying into the sky with them! But, not just that, she totally was fearless in the air and did some amazing moves herself in the air!

Other highlights include the super-playful If You Seek Amy - with boys and hammers - and an amped up version of …Baby One More Time, which still kills.

From flying sets, smoke, wind, pyro, this concert has it all. But it's biggest asset is definitely Spears herself.

There is something about Britney that makes her truly special. She has that indescribable "it" factor. People are always rooting for her, even when she was at her lowest lows. We genuinely want to see her succeed! We've seen her grow up in front of our eyes, and we love her - shortcomings and all. She may not be perfect, but that's okay. She's our Britney.

And she's back, bitches!

We can't wait to see the show again in Atlanta and Miami and see it get better and better.

Perez, your faithful and honest critic, over and out!

P.S. We do feel confident now that Britney is going to finish out the tour, so we are uber excited we'll see it in Los Angeles too.

Enjoy the Circus!

Better than a regular dictionary...

C...is for carousel.

R...is for radio.

Just been linked to this photographic dictionary. It's brilliant. Funny and beautiful photos. Brings a whole new meaning to words. A lovely simple website too.

New look for spring...

I have wanted for ages the Topshop boyfriend blazer as I want to look like LC and throw it over my pretty dresses to toughen them up.


And also finally have an alternative for my cardies as it gets warmer. So I brought it and I don't love it. I'm just not sure it suits me and at £55 its not the cheapest thing for a jobless fashion wannabe. But then a miracle occurred and my mum gave me a vintage Liz Claiborne blazer that was hers and actually has shoulder pads. Could I look any more 80's and for free too! Perfect for experimental fashion. Now I just need the Chanel...

London calling...

London is literally calling me. I'm starting to go out of my mind here in Wales. I just don't have enough to do. There is nothing to do. I feel removed from everything. I am going to do everything in my power to get back there as soon as I can. Going house hunting with my parents this week. Got some great apartments to look at so hopefully one will be amazing and we can start the process. I'm sure it will take some time I just cant wait to move in and start making myself a pretty home! It is going to be so pretty that's for sure!!

I miss the exhibitions, the nights out and just the feeling of being alive I get from walking down the street and never knowing what may happen. I can't wait to move back and have a massive party with all my friends.

And then its my birthday and this year 25 is going to be huge celebration. I can't believe I got to be 25!!!

Lust...

So I'm becoming properly addicted to The City. It's like my dream life fashion in New York. It helps that everyone in it is beautiful of course. But seriously the apartments are amazing, the clothes to die for and they all have dream jobs. My new crush though is Erin Lucas Whitney's friend she always has the most fierce nails first yellow which made me get my very own shade and in the latest episode neon pink...I need it now!!

It was like being in heaven...

Being so close to Brandon Flowers was incredible. There set was amazing, a brilliant mix of old and new. When Mr Brightside came on I literally nearly exploded! The funniest part of the night was when the guys behind asked if I'd been to to o2 before and who had I seen When I told them The Spice Girls with no hint of irony they were like right....?! Bring on Britney I say!

BFF's...

I know people say all the time they have the best friends in the world. But I honestly do. I went two months without seeing them and it was like no time at all. It just felt so natural and so right. I miss them so much.I hate missing out on stuff and I would hate to think I wasn't there for them. I cannot wait to move back to London and back into there lives.

And now we've got our very own personal magician what could be more perfect?