I really want...

Oh my god I'm having to control myself so much. My whole life well ever since i was 16 i have wanted to own a pair of Vivienne Westwood shoes and now we have these at Urban and i have to tell myself that even with the discount i still cant afford them! Too much money to spend on shoes. But one day i will own them. They are perfection.

Home is where the heart is..?

I like where i grew up. It's very fashionable now to trash where I came from and say its a dump. But i love it. I loved growing up by the seaside. I love the tacky amusements and the fair. I love the country on our backdoor. I love the fresh air and i love the feeling of freedom i get when i stand on the prom and feel the sea air on my face. I wouldn't change where i come from for anything, it makes you who you are. So i do still like to go home. I get excited even every time i approach. Maybe it's knowing I'm going to a loving family home. Maybe its knowing my friends are amazing and will always have time to see me. Maybe its the memories. I just love it simple as. And i hate feeling the need to justify to people why I'm coming home. yeah London is great its exciting, its vibrant and life never stops. But home is special. I feel safe. I feel cosy. I feel 100% loved. It's all very good going into the world and living your life but every once in a while i need to stop for a second and remember where i came from and how lucky i am.

My dream...

So i can not actually contain my excitement i have just heard that Johnny Depp is going to play the Mad Hatter in Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland. i can not imagine a more perfect role and a more perfect film. the set design is going to be awe inspiring! OMG i am so excited already!! 

I heart...

I want the SATC DVD so much but cant afford it right now and never buy myself dvds! but oh my gosh how much do i wanna see the extended footage. I know not everyone loved the movie but i did and the fashion alone is reason enough to own the DVD. I want all the bridal couture and the Lavin giant pearls...sigh.

UPDATE: So i have the best sister in the world ever. Without even seeing this Blog or me even going on about it that much she sent it me in the post!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! So so excited! just having it in my hands i feel better! I wonder how many times i will watch it considering i saw it 3 times in the cinema! yep i'm a SATC geek i know but i dont care i LOVE it!

In 24 hours...

24 hours of my life is so varied at the moment and can be so manic. In the last 24 hours I've been so mad busy at work my eyes actually hurt from the whirl of many a designer item I've labelled up to go to the shoot tomorrow. I spent an hour shopping in Boutique though nothing was for me. I've drooled over the new Patricia Field collection for m&s of all places. I was going to go on a bike ride then i changed my mind. There was an earthquake in Rhyl which is the most random of all. I saw Chuck Bass in Glamour this morning and realised i loved him and i have done for a while he is my new TV top crush. I'm going to go watch Lost in Austen tonight with the Wales which is all very exciting. All of this does make me sound quite shallow i am aware but please allow me this as all this goes one whilst i constantly think and have to question myself am i OK? am i feeling OK? i really cant wait for the day when i don't think I'm going to faint again. I had never fainted in my life before all this so now its just weird to me when i get hot or don't eat enough that i might just fall down. I just cant fall down in everyday life. But yeah every 24 hours at the moment so busy so much fun my brain hurts... xoxo