New look for spring...

I have wanted for ages the Topshop boyfriend blazer as I want to look like LC and throw it over my pretty dresses to toughen them up.


And also finally have an alternative for my cardies as it gets warmer. So I brought it and I don't love it. I'm just not sure it suits me and at £55 its not the cheapest thing for a jobless fashion wannabe. But then a miracle occurred and my mum gave me a vintage Liz Claiborne blazer that was hers and actually has shoulder pads. Could I look any more 80's and for free too! Perfect for experimental fashion. Now I just need the Chanel...

London calling...

London is literally calling me. I'm starting to go out of my mind here in Wales. I just don't have enough to do. There is nothing to do. I feel removed from everything. I am going to do everything in my power to get back there as soon as I can. Going house hunting with my parents this week. Got some great apartments to look at so hopefully one will be amazing and we can start the process. I'm sure it will take some time I just cant wait to move in and start making myself a pretty home! It is going to be so pretty that's for sure!!

I miss the exhibitions, the nights out and just the feeling of being alive I get from walking down the street and never knowing what may happen. I can't wait to move back and have a massive party with all my friends.

And then its my birthday and this year 25 is going to be huge celebration. I can't believe I got to be 25!!!

Lust...

So I'm becoming properly addicted to The City. It's like my dream life fashion in New York. It helps that everyone in it is beautiful of course. But seriously the apartments are amazing, the clothes to die for and they all have dream jobs. My new crush though is Erin Lucas Whitney's friend she always has the most fierce nails first yellow which made me get my very own shade and in the latest episode neon pink...I need it now!!

It was like being in heaven...

Being so close to Brandon Flowers was incredible. There set was amazing, a brilliant mix of old and new. When Mr Brightside came on I literally nearly exploded! The funniest part of the night was when the guys behind asked if I'd been to to o2 before and who had I seen When I told them The Spice Girls with no hint of irony they were like right....?! Bring on Britney I say!

BFF's...

I know people say all the time they have the best friends in the world. But I honestly do. I went two months without seeing them and it was like no time at all. It just felt so natural and so right. I miss them so much.I hate missing out on stuff and I would hate to think I wasn't there for them. I cannot wait to move back to London and back into there lives.

And now we've got our very own personal magician what could be more perfect?

Virtual Shopping...

Just thinking about my dream Spring wardrobe and what I'm going to buy when I finally get some money. Saw this skirt in Urban so was checking it out online and I ROFLed. I know the copy writers and they are clever ladies but this is perfect. "You don't need to roam the world to achieve that traveling beauty ‘I’ve been on the beach thinking cultural thoughts all day’ look". Brilliant.

I'm slightly scared of Spring as I cant imagine going without my trusty black opaques to hide my lily white legs. But this year will be the year I think that I just embrace the white. Just got to hit the gym...

I so need a new purse and handbag. But as money isn't the best thing in the world at the moment I'm trying to resist and find ones I really fall for. I'm trying to be really good and wait for my birthday which is in two months. I don't know if I'll make it.

So my Spring look...I'll be 25 so need to be a little bit of a grown up but cute with it. Pastel shades not sold on lilac though. Plenty of creams and whites though. I'm playing with the idea of play suits I'm not quite sold yet. I really need a denim dress I'm thinking Baby Gap if I can squeeze in. Sunglasses will be key i saw gold wayfarers over the weekend but they are so last summer. For now I'm just going to be building up my collection of dresses. Rules will be all must have some sort of sleeve and not indecent. Want some amazing skirts to so I can continue the tucked in look I've only just got addicted to.

There are no pictures to this post as I don't want to much temptation but I also don't want you to steal my clothes.

Some kind of wonderful...

Had a lovely weekend. Full of coffee, treats, laughter and I actually got given the Rob Ryan Book I wanted. Its so perfect. A love story which is like a fairy tale. I'm going to have to get one of his prints for my new apartment. Saw so many couples walking around with roses and as much as I adore flowers I liked my present more.

More love...

The more I see the more I love...

Cy Twombly Roses.

Torn...

This is such a strange time of year and such a hard year for so many people. I'm just one of the many people unemployed but my real struggle is that I have two places I want to call home.

I went to University in London for 4 years and have lived there for periods since. I have the most amazing set of friends there. True friends who are the same sort of person I am. Like the same things and follow the same crowd. They just get me and I love them all. I love the London life style. I love going to exhibitions and new gallery's. I love the different areas and how I can always find just what I need. I love the grit, I love the passion, I love the fashion and I love the city.

Then I have Wales. Where I grew up, where I love. My oldest friends in the world are here and so is my family. Living in Wales could not be more different. There is no daily coffee, its hard to get around when you can't drive and there is not that much to do. But I love it. Its familiar, its safe and its easy. Its green and beautiful. But its more than that I could move to a close by city and get the city life that I love and have the familiarities that appeals to me.

I just don't know what to do. I'm at a point in my life where I can make a decision to go either way. I could move back to London and it would hard and I would struggle by. Or I could stay around here and it would be easier and cheaper and I'd always be safe.

When I talk about feeling safe I'm not talking about city dangers. Living on my own scares me as I have to be the adult and sometimes I cant be. I've been through so much in the past few years and I have this instinct to hide away when things get rough. Being at home means I don't have to face real life.

But real life is passing me by. I'm 25 soon and its going to be 3 years since my accident. I need to move on. I need to live my life and stop using it as an excuse not to. Everyone around me has moved on and are making steps for there future. I feel no further froward than when I graduated. Same situation. I have no one to live with. Well for fuck sake its about time I made things happen. My little sister has just booked a round the world ticket the least I can do is get myself in gear, face my fears and move back to London.

I can't hide forever. Life is tough its never going to be easy but I can do this. PMA Zoe!!

An exciting discovery...

Made the most exciting discovery when I was reading the Saturday papers. Cy Twombly.

The Rose(IV) 2008

This painting of The Rose just amazed me. The article suggests that many people do not like Twombly's work and that these new paintings will hopefully bring in new fans. Well he has succeeded. The colours, the composition and repeats but most importantly the style. I love them. They remind me of Warhols's Flower screen prints. I often just scribble what I think a flower looks like and add a hint of colour. But Twombly has got it perfect. For me anyway a great new find!

I will HAVE to see this...

I've been waiting for this exhibition for months and now here it is!!

Hats: An Anthology by Stephen Jones is a collaboration between the V&A and one of the world’s foremost hat designers, Stephen Jones.

Wash and Go Hat by Stephen Jones

It sounds amazing. Displayed in a magical, box-hedged, Baroque garden setting, Hats An Anthology will be the V&A’s first exhibition devoted to hats, with many pieces from its extensive hat collection on display for the first time. It will show the history of hats from many different era's. Now I've always been a Philip Treacy fan as opposed to a Stephen Jones but this exhibition will show both of there beautiful work.

Parkinson Hat by Philip Treacy

Hats are what got me into the fashion world away from my jewellery and I do find them so much more exciting. I think its the space around the head its offers so much. You could do anything and a lot of milliners do. Everyone can wear a hat. Everyone understands hats. But there are some special hats that these guys create that are just magical.

Isabella Blow in hat by Philip Treacy

The fantastic Isabella Blow discovered Philip Treacy, and at her memorial Anna Wintour said about her, "Yet Issy never forgot what was really important. That at its best, fashion is about discovery and inspiration and creating magic. And that’s why none of us will ever forget her."

That's why I love fashion, Its offers a world of discovery and wonder. It creates colours and even in the depth of winter you can open Vogue and be delighted by what they are showing you. The colours, the fabrics the vision. That's what makes me love hats. They take on a life of there own and allow the wearer to create there own little bit of magic however small.

Hats: An Anthology by Stephen Jones is on 24th February through till 31st May